When I learned that Charismatic Community, my spiritual group, will join Pamaypay Festival Dance Contest in our parish, I felt excited. But my excitement was splashed with anxiety when I heard that I am being pinpointed to be the choreographer of the group. First and foremost, it has been years since I last danced, and my dance steps are already outdated, how the heck will I create a dance routine? Second, I also need to review my skills on how to handle a dance troup. Third, I hate the feeling of being compared to hired choreographer that my spiritual group used to have. Fourth, I don’t know if I can handle the title of defending their title as last year’s champions.
All in all, at first, I was frightened by the responsibility of being a leader. I was afraid of comparison, criticism, judgments. Most of all, I was afraid of my own self. I was afraid I am not enough for my own expectations.
Charismatic Community helped me through the process. If I have faith in my dancers, that is because my dancers have so much faith in me. I know that when they are saying my name, I can sense respect. It’s that sense of feeling that these kids will not let me go whatever circumstances may be. I have seen in their eyes that their spirit is there, they have the courage to show their talents. I felt through them that they “needed” not only a choreographer but a leader as well. I felt their needs to have someone to guide them, someone who will teach them how to be winners.All my anxieties faded when I saw that opportunity to be that someone to these people. I saw my own chance to show them different values in life through dancing.
Its not all smooth sailing though. First, I have to smoothen out the concept. Since it was a Pamaypay Festival, I know that this will include battle of colors! My first idea was “fusion of nation” wherein national dances from different countries will be presented. The problem with this concept was it sounded like “united nations” number.
With costumes, I let my dancers be resourceful enough to find their own tights, accessories, socks, gloves, and rubber shoes. I focused more on buying the cloth for their bahag. The truth is, I want to teach my dancers how to be independent. I noticed that they became dependent over the years of having a hired choreographer. In that case, the choreographer provided them with costumes and props. This time, I want them to get involved. I don’t want them to just learn how to dance from me. I want them to learn how to be responsible and resourceful. I told them that if they can’t provide for their own costume, then, they have no right to dance. When someone would complain they have no resources, I would compare her/him to another dancer who was able to provide for herself or himself.
I also focused on their attitude and spirituality. I wanted for them to offer their gifts to God who is the source of their talents. I want to prove them somehow the power of prayer and faith. So, before and after rehearsal we would pray- asking for God’s guidance – and asking Him audaciously to bring us to champions’ place. While teaching them the dance steps, I also had the chance to give them insights about respect to others- respect to your codancers and to your elders. I thought them about team work, about being a “team”- and helping each other to reach their goals. I told them them since they are wonderful dancers, they would definitely meet wonderful choreographers who would teach them wonderful dance steps. But I want to be someone who will not only teach them wonderful steps but wonderful attitude as well. I want to inculcate things they can use not only during the performance but after the performace and all through their life as well.
Congrats sa SJDC Charismatic Dancers! WE DID IT!!!!!!